Life according to Vika
A number of years ago I became extremely curious and mildly obsessed with the process and chemistry behind that simple and gracelessly banal element of human’s every day life…soap.
It was while I was playing with the ingredients, making my first ever batch of soap, keen to hack into knowledge of what it's all about that I noticed immediately something that was very different from any other creative activity that I had submerged myself into - FLOW. An obscure state all artists are so addicted to.
Flow or the zone defined as the mental state of operation in which a person performing an activity is fully immersed in a feeling of energised focus, full involvement, and enjoyment in the process of the activity. In essence, flow is characterised by complete absorption in what one does.
I repeated the process and here it was again…flow, and again, and again. I was hooked, sold, and in the game I could not get out (worse I couldn't care any less)! So there it was a thought "If only I could get away with making a living from it!”. The more I thought about my experience of the flow and a vice idea to make whole thing big, the more I was lured into making it happened.
GREENWASH ticked all the boxes for me. It was creative. I could get grubby and get my hands onto making. The science behind it was fun and challenging. The appealing idea of creating something that isn't classified as "stuff" (our planet needs no more of it). To create something that is beautiful but trite, something that won't last, but illusory dissolve leaving you to capture nothing but the experience…and of course now you're clean and smell nice! Also the humanitarian in me was screaming "You can make a difference here!”.
So you get the idea. It’s not just business, it’s personal.
I don’t. I feel like a loser a lot of the time. I'm doing what I can until someone figures out that I shouldn't be doing anything at all. They call it impostor syndrome, right? Maybe if you set the target super low for yourself, haha…wise. Or if you’re a fine, accurate case of a narcissist, you might never face this. But for the rest of us with pockets full of dreams, yearning and intentions, it's totally normal.
Digging deep into soap-making helped me to understand myself. I figured out that I have a kink to gravitated towards profoundly inefficient methods of creation!
Anything that reintroduces ancient, rare and weird raw materials, or technics that are too time consuming, too fluid, and too costly for use in mass-production. Creating something truly special because it is researched OCD-style, individually sourced, made by hand, and so damn artfully inefficient! It couldn’t possibly be any other way that fragrance found me. I want to be a perfumer.
WHAT DO YOU
WANT TO BE DOING
IN TEN YEARS?
Cosmetics/skin care retail, like a floor consultant…haha, floor…it was a tiny cute shop with just me in it. I was 16 and I loved it.
HOW DO YOU DO IT ALL?
No Pasaran! perfumer-wanna-be.
photo by Phillip England from
WHAT YOU DO TODAY,
THE BEST THING
Maybe making films or acting…ummm, maybe not acting. Something stressful and messy, but awfully rewarding.
I have some friends in the local filmmakers community. Few times a year we have film competitions, just for fun. We shoot shorties (short films) for a chosen theme/genre (under 3 min) and then watch and vote for the best one…and drink a lot as we go, haha! It’s hilarious!
Apart from being surrounded by beautifully smelling things in my studio?
Independence; I don’t have to satisfy the concerns of the big companies: I don't have to follow client’s guidelines/wishes, I'm not tied to shareholders, a board, or even ‘the industry’ as it's commonly known. I can play, I can have fun and I can make very small amounts of anything. Being tiny, you can afford to be mischievous and daring!
Practicing craft; only a 'proper' job can be quantifiable, but craft is always expands, pushing the boundaries of the craftsman's means ever further. Discovering and innovating means that you keep growing, even reborn into someone different if you wish. And I crave that one day we will bring definition of craftsmanship back, because in our modern world it’s been downgraded to the status of hobby.
ARE YOU MOST
My restless mind that questions everything and forever! Argh, some days it is so exhausting!
That I’m still childish enough to have crazy fun, maybe I’ll have to give it up one day (oh, I hope not).
My health and my heathy family. I’m so lucky!
IF YOU WERE
TO KEEP ONLY ONE
CD AND LISTEN TO IT
Anohni, also known as Antony Hegarty or Anthony & the Johnsons band. I went to her concert once. I expected organisers to ask for my right kidney to get in, but they only charged my bank account with a three digits number.
Anohni is huge, so talented. I can’t comprehend how a mortal human being can do what she does! I love her so much.
I have the same with some classical composers, like Prokofiev, or Vivaldi, or Tchaikovsky. I listen to them and think ‘Holy coconut! You were bones and flesh, just like me, and you created this? How?’
ABOUT WHAT YOU DO?
TO THE REST OF YOU LIFE,
WHAT IT WOULD BE?
WHAT WOULD YOU WANT
TO BE DOING?
HATE DOING BUT
WHAT DO YOU
Some aspects of admin just bore me to death.
Cheesy as it sounds, but it would have to be becoming a mother and giving birth to my first son. Even physically childbirth is such a marathon to complete (my first labour was 26 hours). Hell, yeah, I was proud of myself!
For at least a month after that I felt like a queen who conquered the summit…tho it wares off, haha! Then your sleep deprived mind slips into survival mode for a minimum of two years. Argh, parenting is so hard at that stage!
HAVE TO DO?
It would be less time-consuming to compose a list of the normal things about me.
I talk to my dog in Russian in this child-like voice. Even him (the dog) usually has an expression questioning my level of intelligence and sanity. It’s really bad! Shhh, please don’t tell anyone, or I won’t be able to score a date for the next three years, Hobart is too small.
THING ABOUT YOU?
Coffee…and then the world!
Study perfumery. Oh, I so wanna! And I want always to stay stupid and open to learn more, never stop learning.